I had a very rude awakening yesterday.
I decided to do something that I've been putting off.....buying a new suit for work. Why have I been putting it off? Did you see my last post? Yes, thats why..*sigh* plus they are super expensive. $198 just for the suit jacket! OMG! Also since I've been losing weight I would really hate to spend all that money then have to turn around and spend more money to get it altered or buy a new one.
So on to the rude awakening, as I'm trying on all these clothes in my old sizes, which I did manage to zip up, under bright unflattering fluorescent lights and infront of the three huge mirrors in this teeny tiny room, I saw the most disgusting thing I have EVER seen in my entire life!! I have the worst of back fat I have ever seen on anyone! Not that i didn't know it was there, but its so much worst seeing it in there.
Honestly, I just have way too much of everything. I have extra skin around my belly area that I now have a full muffin top. It was easier to hide before but now there's no amount of sucking in that can hide that beast.
Its very discouraging. How in the hell do I get rid of that thing? My baby is eight months now and it still looks the same as it did the same day I pushed her out. It really put me in a depressed, insecure mode. So I did what any normal woman would do in this very delicate state...
Buy shoes - because whatever weight I am, they will always fit and look darn good on me. I am usually a very safe (black) shoe buyer. But wanted to try something new :) It will also go really well with......this outfit..that I haven't bought yet because I am also a sale shopper. So I'm waiting..until then or I get an awesome coupon.
I'm not complaining, ok maybe a little, but its not going to away until I do something about it And I will I just need to vent out a little. :) Check back for more updates!